I'm Feeling Reminicent, Even Though I Don't Feel Like Talking

I really want to visit MCA. DDDD:

I wanted to go tomorrow SO BADLY. But my mom is being... well, my mom. She won't let me skip my last freapin class *not a typo* WAAAAAHHH!!! I wana visit MCA!! *tear*

Okay, in all honesty, I want to see Brandon. How sad is that? *sigh* I can't help it. It's not that being apart from him is painful, really; I never had him in the first place, so what is there to miss? But, I was thinking about seeing him again earlier. My feelings for Brandon kind of fade and flux now that I never see him, and it can move from a throbbing ache to a dull who-really-cares humming. But when I was thinking about it, for the longest time, I thought I would ignore him; not make eye contact or anything. This time I was just randomly day dreaming and I wasn't paying attention to the flow of thoughts in my day dream until some part of my consiousness decided to bomb me with this; I was visiting MCA in the day dream, and the moment I walked in the door, I said hello to my old ss teacher and then I went straight to Brandon, pulled him up by his shoulders and kissed him; full on. No hesitation. And I was seeing myself from a distance, so I saw this determination in my eyes when I turned to Brandon, and I saw in his eyes that he knew what was coming, and he didn't resist it. How pathetic, right? I'm so love deprived I have to look to sad little day dreams for comfort. *sigh*